Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I wanted you

Ina - I wanted you


Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby~~
I wanted you
I wanted you~

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you,I want you~

I wanted you! Haaa!~~~~~`
I wanted you!~~~wanted you!~


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I don't give a damn shit....

Here's the thing,I've just read the blog that my friend wrote.He was saying he will try not to hate people and I agree with him but sometimes things just purposely making you hate it.I know I damn like to delay my time.I like to sleep for 15 minutes before I really wake up.And I have my timing to do things also alright.Promise that you wanna out at 8.30am I will be ready for that.Then tell me lar....no need come back and yell at me say if you tomorrow not reach on time I won't take you go work.Don;t care what time I coming down and do what janji I ready before 8.30am lar....now you were saying tomorrow busy and need go out early say lar....8.15am go out...then I get ready for that lar...Don't tell me you won't take me to work...if don't go don't go lar,I don't mind.It won't work for me,for this kind of age.I have grown enough for that.
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
If that so I willing not to work...what for I so torturing myself early in the morning go work I rather sleep at home and watch television.Because of I go for work,I missed out every single good moment.What do I get from that?NOTHING!!!!What do I care for that.
Another thing is, saying my cousin's sister wanna go for UTAR,then let it be lar.Why wanna say that because my uncle wanna avoid his daugther from being pak tor-ing.Why a lady can't be mature enough?Hello....this is your daugther and you didn't even care whether she is mature or not.Always saying her not mature enough and when its time for mature then why so early mature.What the fuck do you want from me?Your daugther me is mature enough...what'sthe problem....what generation is now?I really do not know what do you want?I've did my best for my result and i don't give a damn damn shit for that.
Don't make me hate you yet I'm still loving you and wannna be a good daugther.Don't make me to be a bad bad daugther.I don't wanna be that.People were saying you are such a good children for you parents....you four are such a good lovely children for your parents.But I can assure you here is, we are not really that "good" enough for that.And they don't really the one who bringing me up to be what I am now.Not at all...so be it.....

Monday, November 30, 2009

Baby Rye Yern

This is baby Rye Yern ^^

My baby nephew...He is gorgeous isn't he. how lovely he is.When I look at him,it makes me have the thought to have one too...haha....baby is good...they are such a miracle to us.Brings happiness...although they always cry when they want to have milk,poop,pee and etc.

but still....they are lovely......^^



Tuesday, October 20, 2009

It's a good news...how unbelievable....xD

Hie there, here's the thing, I just took my result and I didn't meant to blog but I have nothing to do instead of playing games so I rather come in and update my blog since...its been a long time. Alright, first thing first,I got my result and yes I'm happy with it. I didn't think that I will have such result.....please allow me.....YEAH!!!!!!! HURRAY!!!!! okay....that's enough.... id o really satisfied I do....and I will work more harder to reach where I could be.

Another thing is,I get my mum's permission, that I can go Australia anytime that I want. Yet, I still don't have the courage but I will train myself to have the courage to over sea. Its not an easy things to me.Although I've been there but its years ago. I love that kind of life, and not in Malaysia. I do not know why the English men and Americans or other foreigners like Malaysia.and Malaysian of course will like other country more than Malaysia itself. Maybe is when you in here, you see the negative and outside you see the positive and you have the perception that outside is better than inside and you will wish to immigrant. But that's the future thing. I just went for holidays for god sake....I must enjoy every time i went there. I will one day I will go....Leaving Malaysia or not that have to see myself whether have the ability to do it or not. But holiday....Australia....I'm coming....hehe......Just give me some time and improving my English.... I'm trying already now...

I know recently I'm being very damn emo, I do not want to and I don't know why that I became like that.But I think it won't be happen again,I just have to thank you....Thank you you to be next to me every time i can't sleep, I can't study,I'm not happy,I'm happy and thank you that sharing with me....hehe....glad to have you beside me...It's my honor to have you such a friend of mine....hehe....Cheers........

Lastly, my brother already engaged, and hope he can have a really good relationship with his fiancee. And that day, while my brother is registered, he took the vow the vow that previously I think is easy to take the vow because it just a vow cause you seen in TV its easy because its just drama but when you in the situation you the one taking it, wow....its different, it's makes me don't have the courage to get married in future, if I don't have the ready yet.say No to marriage.God,its a forever vow, how can you have this vow for a life, its crazy,plus there's too many marriage that is broken. Its....I don't know...its just makes me feel....insecure....well, I know I'm too young to think about this.Okay, stop thinking but, my brother, he is so courage because he is married....salute to you....

My sister is going to get birth....can't wait to have a nephew, its named Ryan....hehe.....going out next week I think God bless them all....Hope everything will be just fine fine fine....hehe.....



Sunday, October 4, 2009

Served You Right....

Alright, I do not wanna post blog actually, but humans....always will be the cause to another human to do something they do not want to do. Just like me,I don't want to post but some causes make me to do so, I've just post a post in my facebook which stated as below:

"How you treat people now is how people treat you back in future, that's the reality, DO NOT ask me will I treat you nicer in future, and DO NOT BLAME for what I've done to you in future.....You, yourself created it.....not me...."

Well, in a second there's people who agreed with my statement. Why would i suddenly posted this is because people force me to do so. A human that I try to Love but it making me frustrate and do not know how am I going to learn to love.the questions you asked me, with no doubt i was going to say,"Yes, I will treat you better,because you are my....". But these few days, you make me changed my mind, now I understand why they always criticize you and I'm still there to say you are fair enough you treat people is fair enough. Now, things changed. As I said before, people changed so do I.As the statement above, I do not how will I treat you in future.It depends...I do not know anything in future. Hope miracles come up and changed my mind.

How you treated me just now is frustrating me, you made me have those thoughts, you the one who have to blame yourself but not me not them. You made me as a sinner, I do not want it happen to me. I've try to control my devil but.....you really pissed me off....



I'm Sorry......

Friday, August 21, 2009

Change me....

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