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2010-10-31T02:43:00.000-07:00

I wanted you

2010-01-26T06:10:00.000-08:00

Ina - I wanted you

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby
But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby~~
I wanted you
I wanted you~

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you,I want you~

I wanted you! Haaa!~~~~~`
I wanted you!~~~wanted you!~

I don't give a damn shit....

2009-12-22T03:22:00.000-08:00

Here's the thing,I've just read the blog that my friend wrote.He was saying he will try not to hate people and I agree with him but sometimes things just purposely making you hate it.I know I damn like to delay my time.I like to sleep for 15 minutes before I really wake up.And I have my timing to do things also alright.Promise that you wanna out at 8.30am I will be ready for that.Then tell me lar....no need come back and yell at me say if you tomorrow not reach on time I won't take you go work.Don;t care what time I coming down and do what janji I ready before 8.30am lar....now you were saying tomorrow busy and need go out early say lar....8.15am go out...then I get ready for that lar...Don't tell me you won't take me to work...if don't go don't go lar,I don't mind.It won't work for me,for this kind of age.I have grown enough for that.

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

If that so I willing not to work...what for I so torturing myself early in the morning go work I rather sleep at home and watch television.Because of I go for work,I missed out every single good moment.What do I get from that?NOTHING!!!!What do I care for that.

Another thing is, saying my cousin's sister wanna go for UTAR,then let it be lar.Why wanna say that because my uncle wanna avoid his daugther from being pak tor-ing.Why a lady can't be mature enough?Hello....this is your daugther and you didn't even care whether she is mature or not.Always saying her not mature enough and when its time for mature then why so early mature.What the fuck do you want from me?Your daugther me is mature enough...what'sthe problem....what generation is now?I really do not know what do you want?I've did my best for my result and i don't give a damn damn shit for that.

Don't make me hate you yet I'm still loving you and wannna be a good daugther.Don't make me to be a bad bad daugther.I don't wanna be that.People were saying you are such a good children for you parents....you four are such a good lovely children for your parents.But I can assure you here is, we are not really that "good" enough for that.And they don't really the one who bringing me up to be what I am now.Not at all...so be it.....

Baby Rye Yern

2009-11-30T06:32:00.000-08:00

This is baby Rye Yern ^^

My baby nephew...He is gorgeous isn't he. how lovely he is.When I look at him,it makes me have the thought to have one too...haha....baby is good...they are such a miracle to us.Brings happiness...although they always cry when they want to have milk,poop,pee and etc.

but still....they are lovely......^^

It's a good news...how unbelievable....xD

2009-10-20T11:46:00.000-07:00

Hie there, here's the thing, I just took my result and I didn't meant to blog but I have nothing to do instead of playing games so I rather come in and update my blog since...its been a long time. Alright, first thing first,I got my result and yes I'm happy with it. I didn't think that I will have such result.....please allow me.....YEAH!!!!!!! HURRAY!!!!! okay....that's enough.... id o really satisfied I do....and I will work more harder to reach where I could be.

Another thing is,I get my mum's permission, that I can go Australia anytime that I want. Yet, I still don't have the courage but I will train myself to have the courage to over sea. Its not an easy things to me.Although I've been there but its years ago. I love that kind of life, and not in Malaysia. I do not know why the English men and Americans or other foreigners like Malaysia.and Malaysian of course will like other country more than Malaysia itself. Maybe is when you in here, you see the negative and outside you see the positive and you have the perception that outside is better than inside and you will wish to immigrant. But that's the future thing. I just went for holidays for god sake....I must enjoy every time i went there. I will one day I will go....Leaving Malaysia or not that have to see myself whether have the ability to do it or not. But holiday....Australia....I'm coming....hehe......Just give me some time and improving my English.... I'm trying already now...

I know recently I'm being very damn emo, I do not want to and I don't know why that I became like that.But I think it won't be happen again,I just have to thank you....Thank you you to be next to me every time i can't sleep, I can't study,I'm not happy,I'm happy and thank you that sharing with me....hehe....glad to have you beside me...It's my honor to have you such a friend of mine....hehe....Cheers........

Lastly, my brother already engaged, and hope he can have a really good relationship with his fiancee. And that day, while my brother is registered, he took the vow the vow that previously I think is easy to take the vow because it just a vow cause you seen in TV its easy because its just drama but when you in the situation you the one taking it, wow....its different, it's makes me don't have the courage to get married in future, if I don't have the ready yet.say No to marriage.God,its a forever vow, how can you have this vow for a life, its crazy,plus there's too many marriage that is broken. Its....I don't know...its just makes me feel....insecure....well, I know I'm too young to think about this.Okay, stop thinking but, my brother, he is so courage because he is married....salute to you....

My sister is going to get birth....can't wait to have a nephew, its named Ryan....hehe.....going out next week I think God bless them all....Hope everything will be just fine fine fine....hehe.....

Served You Right....

2009-10-04T09:26:00.000-07:00

Alright, I do not wanna post blog actually, but humans....always will be the cause to another human to do something they do not want to do. Just like me,I don't want to post but some causes make me to do so, I've just post a post in my facebook which stated as below:

"How you treat people now is how people treat you back in future, that's the reality, DO NOT ask me will I treat you nicer in future, and DO NOT BLAME for what I've done to you in future.....You, yourself created it.....not me...."

Well, in a second there's people who agreed with my statement. Why would i suddenly posted this is because people force me to do so. A human that I try to Love but it making me frustrate and do not know how am I going to learn to love.the questions you asked me, with no doubt i was going to say,"Yes, I will treat you better,because you are my....". But these few days, you make me changed my mind, now I understand why they always criticize you and I'm still there to say you are fair enough you treat people is fair enough. Now, things changed. As I said before, people changed so do I.As the statement above, I do not how will I treat you in future.It depends...I do not know anything in future. Hope miracles come up and changed my mind.

How you treated me just now is frustrating me, you made me have those thoughts, you the one who have to blame yourself but not me not them. You made me as a sinner, I do not want it happen to me. I've try to control my devil but.....you really pissed me off....

I'm Sorry......

Change me....

2009-08-21T01:46:00.000-07:00

I always told people, people will change,everyone in this world will change when they face different situation,people....this is human...Yet, myself also will change.But I can't take any consequences that it occured when people changed. i always asked people to change.its time to change,why cant change yourself,its for your own good.but then, i dunno what would i say. you changed...i do not know whether you really changed or this is the one you are that u hidden from start. i do not know whether is me,myself who think too much or yes maybe is my attitude that i will get jealous if someone good with my friends...i do not know,but i realise that, even we are friends also i can feel that you will some day betray me.and now you are. and you are doing it.you become more and more scary.i become more and more don't know you. but for me,you are still the one who will deny and walk away your wrongness...that is you....

people around you may stabbing you at the back and you do not know.i won't speak wont' tell and i won't say any bad things behind you guys.i've learnt that it is a sin...i dowan to be a sinful person.i'm starting to quit but i do not know you guys....it is hard for me to be together with you guys...it is very very hard.it is a very tough task for me to do so...i plan to leave to guys.mayb leaving you guys i will be better,you guys will be better...

you guys already dissapointed me, you say you change but you dun....

FTW.....

2009-07-22T06:51:00.000-07:00

I've cried...I'm so stress right now...what's going on to me?its just a small est...why my head still pain....please just stop for few hours...i just wanna read....please please please help me to understand it.....i need to understand it....i want to understand it......POP.....what the fuck...........

I've Cried.....

2009-06-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

I do not know what actually happened on me.I feel nothing right now,i know that I'm very damn stress and suffering.about what and what caused me felt that way,i do not know.i wanna throw them away.i don't want them to bother me. i feel very uncomfortable with it.i want myself back.

I've started to feel like this is not me,this is not Carina that used to be.she changed.....until I,myself already don't recognize myself.where am i?i cried just now.after that,i feel much better. but again,the pain is ain't gonna disappear though.

I do not know what am i become,I just don't want to be so emo.What really happened to me????is it i gave myself too much pressure,too much expectation only came out bad outcome.I just wanna do things right.I don't want to be bossy,control everything.I don't want all of this......why am i so fucking damn emo...... I hate to be that way.....that is so not me....its not Carina!!!!!!!

I wish to have a really new life and no emo Carina coming out....please...go away.....I don't want you.....I just wanna be myself which not affraid of everything....argghhhhhhh......>.<"""

Emo-ing

2009-06-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

New trimester has started for 2 weeks,although feels not so easy but I will try my best to make it good.I know it will be tough for everyone,but still i hope i can have more better outcome.Plus,i quite emo recently, I don;t know why.But i need to apologies that I'm having emo face,i can't control it.I'm sorry......

Ganbade......^^

I'm not happy.....

2009-04-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

I'm not happy.....i don't know why i'm not happy.i don't know why i feel myself not happy....I don't know the reason,don't know when i became not happy and i don't what am i thinking,doing now...i just feel that i'm not happy....

Maybe is too many things to think of....

Mayb is suddenly too many things happened in my life....

Maybe is i'm thinking too far from here....

Perhaps its time for me to take a break...

for not bothering anything happens around me so that i really can calm down and relax....

Perhaps is the weather matter,makes me feel rude and bad mood....

Perhaps is because of stress that i'm giving myself for final....

Perhaps its all about me,myself and I....

Perhaps its just in a short period then i will be fine....

Perhaps...............

But still.....i'm not happy....what can i do to make myself happy....i don't want to see myself so dull and so emo....i want the cheerful myself back right now,right this second this moment....

Help me to find it back.......PLEASE!!!

i do not know how much long that i can stand....I WANT MY CARINA BACK....

2009-02-27T05:46:00.000-08:00

its been long time that i didnt actually update my personal blog.from the 1st time i wrote this blog...i wonder what kind of feeling i had o have his blog and so many posts.I thought that this blog is for me to wrote someone i do not like in my life so that i can dont have the hatred in them. But then, i also put happy,sweet moments in this blogs jz to have a share to my dearest. I dont mind whether this blog gt people come in n view o not.for me...its ad enough...i shall not end this blog coz sometimes i can use it to gv out my feelings that frustrated me for so long.so that it makes me more relax...coz i already vomits everything that annoying me into here.

ok....heres it goes....1st...i dont like someone...well....can say that this person actually is nothing....but annoying me...i dun like the voice and action of this person.i dun like either hw this person act and behave....hello...its in U now...wat u expect...duhhh....jz plz...dun let me hate u deeply....i dont want some day....i open my damn fuckin' mouth to scold u....it is mean i knw...tats why i cntrl myself until now...so plz...if u really notice and realize plz...change it b4 we kick ur ass off .....SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd...i already many years dont have this kind of feeling....which is....have a crush on someone...i dont know this is what feeling...but....its so real and so....cant resist it....i really do not know what to do now....i dont even dare to think of it....who can understand my feeling now....suddenly, so many things happend in my life....i really need a break....i really need to take a deep deep deep breathe so that i can be free for anything and continue fight for what i want.....

midterm,assignment,lousy members,someone someone...why all of you coming in one time...i dont want u all....plz....get rid of it..... dont like u all....i really dont want to have a cruel life and complicated life now.....i want to have a normal life..normal that i wont be so frustrated and many things bugging....although i know human sure will passed these all....dont you think its too early for me to get through these...im just fuckin' 19....damn it...a normal girl that dont wish to have anyhting in her life now.....she dont want luxury anymore,dont want complicated relationships and useless members....and a class of freak that being so so so strange for her....i dont know is my problem r theirs...i feel myself suc ha freak now....i really dont have any direction to go now....what should i do now......i really have no idea....i passed so many things b4 this....nothing can stop me...why am i still judging my ability now....i know i can get through these things......why until now...i still cant make it real?izzit so ard for me to get through?where is the carina that dont scared of anything and death goes?plz help me find myself back....i not enough brave to passed it with now de me....sorry...suddenly cant think any words...broken words will do...i really want myself back....i almost everyday thinking want to have a big big big big big cry just to release my pain and stress.....i cant express out my feeling....its really torturing me...nothing can help me to make it out...i have tried many ways...just cant...i went to sing,i told my sis....both sis....i told my fren...i told mh....in conclusion....I STILL FUCKIN' STRESS!!!!!

i am so sorry to write so emo blog tonite....i really sorry...i hope i can let it go....i do really wish want to scream out as loud as possible so that i wont be so........DEPRESS....aihzzz.....LAME GIRL....

i'm tired~~~tired of being me rite now...

2009-01-08T07:01:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time i din update my blog...tonite....i dunno why i suddenly wanna to write something that is not important o special..

next week i will start my degree life in kampar,although its near and i can every week bck hmtown,but...i still dun hv the mood to staying there for 3 years for christ sake....3 years....i feel so stress rite now although i nt yt start class.....

and honestly i really feel sked...i dunno i sked bout wat.....jz sked...and keep thinking and thinking and thinking...i dunno whether i hv made the rite decision o not and i hope i din make any bad decision....i really dont wanna fail and tk the wrong path again...i really feel tired for now.i dunno why i will so emo rite now...bt i wish to cry out jz to release my stress...mayb i can hv a big big cry so tat i can be more awake and knw wats rite for me.....

wat happen to me actually???wats thing tat bother me now....keeping me thinking thinking n thinking...i wish to stop it....i dun wanna think it again....its really tiring....

and i started to feel bored and tiring for something...i dunno wat izzit....can someone plz passed me a compass.....i hv no idea where am i heading now....i hv no direction rite now........

baby,plz dun cry...a strong lady won't cry for this kind of stuff.....

2008-10-05T11:58:00.000-07:00

have you ever thought about how long would u live in this world???

how long is ur life is???

you can live until what age???

izzit 80,90,100??????

or just short short 20.....or more.....but less than.....

i never thought i will have this kind of life.but now,i knew.i am....and what i've thought is,i've been wasting my fucking time for nothing...i done nothing great,proud nor helpful to anybody......

what can i do now is,don't think so much....anything will be fine,just appreciate what u hv now,do what u nid to do.don't ever look back....look forward....u will be fine loveyna....u know u can.....don't ever cry for this.....

u hv no regret for everyhting what u 've done....this is fate,u know and u believe in it,and u must hv faith in it....you can passed it.....evertything will be just fine.........

be more happy and be urself.....enjoy ur life.......anjoy everything u hv now and in future.....so that u won't regret what u've done......

i luv u guyzzzz......

sex or luv~~~

2008-09-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

爱的定义在哪里？是在于情的爱，还是性的爱？有性才有爱，还是有爱才有性？(what is the meaning of LOVE?izzit the luv love or the sex luv?hv sex then oni gt luv o u hv luv then oni gt sex?) this is the meaning of my Pm in MSN.

so guyss....which were u prefer tooo.....

do u agree wid this statement o u hv another statement to let me know?

i'm happy to hv ur answer and comment ....haha....coz i still curious bout this topic.....

izzit everyone will like tat o jz certain ppl will do so....

then someone told me...havign sex in the relationship is to 'mengeratkan' the relationship between each others....well...i do agree wid it...hehe....coz it is true of tat i think....haha.....

there are too many philophophy in terms of luv and sex...we will never understand and get used to it...but humans....are greedy...humans are for sure will fullfill themselves wid anything they had jz to satisfied their desire.....

humans are never felt enuff and satisfied for everything....including luv and sex....they will one more when they had the 1st try...am i right???

take a bow-Rihanna

2008-09-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

dunno why...after mh intro me this song....i really like this song....every words inside this song is really really.....meaningful...and its really touchie lor...haha....

wat can say....

i fall in luv to this song....

hehe....^^

fucking konsortium.....

2008-09-23T09:50:00.000-07:00

last nite....i did sth unsual....then today i came bck hometown...well...its nothing special....jz only i never never ever tk konsortium bus again unless i really really really X 1,000,000,000 times...desperate....mother f,i already knw konsortium is alwaz late and the air conditioner is nt working...its fine....but the bus broke down half way....dun they check the bus whether they can jalan o not....walao...this is ridiculous.....makes me so pissed off....

i really did the wrong decision which is tk konsortium hm....i should tk transnasional better....aihzzz....

and i should know sth will gonna happen...coz link ad warn me....coz she say sth tat she normally wun say it to me...tats why im so curious why she say so....then...it happened when im on the way hm...which is....everything not going as it should be....sure gt sth came out and ruin it....aihzzz....so sad....

it really out of my mind....

2008-09-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

last nite i went to sea park to eat mamak....i miss mamak so much....haha...then link ask me whether wanna watch something we hv been long time din do it togehter ad...which is...P!hehe....then after mamak section we 4 gals went to a shop...buying sth tat i really dun hv the heart n guts to go n buy....but i already did it....after buying only i realise what hv i done...i really dunno wat am i doing on tat moment...OMG....

this is ridiculous...

this is crazy....

this is nuts...

i really going crazy...

i really dun hv the tent to do it aso...haha.....u guys wanna what izzit???ask mh.....haha....

i really cant believe i did it....

and mh....that thing...really shit...costed us 20 bucks for nth....i watch untill wanna sleep....the guy lagi say is 5 stars....shit....being corned ad....aihzzz....kek sim.....not challengging aso....lolzzzz....

link's birthday.....

2008-09-22T01:47:00.000-07:00

we celebrating link's birthday on the 18th nite in 1U.....

this is the bday lengchai....hehe.....luckily i sempat celebrate wid her...haha... abo i reallly gv her killed...coz i last year din celebrate wid her....

although i say many lie to her jz to gv her suprise....so dun angry ok...haha.....

happy birthday to u n gud luck ooo....hehe.....

muackzzz....stay lengchai......^^

thank you u guyzzz...^^ muackzzz....

2008-09-17T02:38:00.000-07:00

how to say ler....i ad stay in kampar for 3 months....erm....nt exactly 3 months....its kind of bored actually staying there....its really different wid taiping n kl...coz kampar is really nth to do...except pokers,eat,studying and sth heathly bt i wun do....and lazy to do so.....

luckily,i hv a bunch of frens from taiping whose alwaz accompany me and i alwaz go find them when i hv time....honestly,i do really hv a lots of time in kampar....lolzzz....

im glad i hv u guys beside me when i was in bored,trouble and pain...haha....my back pain case....ya lar...i knw kind of awkward and lame...haha....thank you gooi jianhong aka smelly man...whose alwaz when i nid him pick me up he is there for me lor....thank you ya boss....thank you u when i want bck tpg u will bck although u dowan to,thank you u help me tk things bck although u dowan to,,,,bt i really happy n glad u r my frens....stay cool ooo...n i wun lupa ur bag lar pang sim....i do prostitute aso will go buy one for u....haha...jz kidding...hehe...i knw u wun knw u will appear in my blog....i aso dunno when n why since my blog turn into not scolding ppl's blog...haha....

then,i hv to thank ruijing(sui eh)stop cubit and beating me.....blekzzzzz.....mei mei,shi sui,take away and yen yen,....hehe....thank you u guys....helping me up when i nid ur guys help....its my honour to hv u guys as my fren ooo....haha....sounds dun like me hor....i aso feel weird....but nvm lar...haha...its from my heart...haha....thank you u guys tk me go 'chi fen' haha....nt eat shit its eat noodle...cheap n nice....today we went there eat again...haha....its really gud....i full until now....haha...

i really do hv great time wid u guys....haha....alwaz hv laugther in the air whenever n wherever u guys are.....its reall great to live wid guys....hehe...really luv u guys......muackzzz....hehe^^

and last....mh,sam,angie,wing,ee yong,hua,oh no i lupa again....what's tat name again....haha...mh remind me when u read this blog...haha...happy to knw new frens n seeing u guys in kampar....save me...haha....tk me go see stars...yeah...ok...i miss bling bling stars again....and ang g lyn....wakakazzzz.....

thank you u guys....i luv u guys so much....hehe....muackzzz....sweeeeeeeeeeeet.........

i will be bck soon.....hehe...

________THE END_________

fuck tat guy....

2008-09-16T04:16:00.000-07:00

wat the hell on earth is going on...why am i so sui....kena org curi panties...fuck it....i jz bought it nia....and the target is nt me aso....stole it ad aso nvm....bt dun find any excuses to cover ur wrongness lar....u think i am a small gal meh....becoz of argue wid gf n tension in exam tats why u do this.....CRAP.....RUBBISH...SHIT....

if bcoz of tat i can go stole guy's underwear thousands of times ad lar....stupid reason.....i die die aso wun believe ...maniac.....fuck the world.....stupid reasons......

having a good n nice week in kampar tat i ever had...

2008-08-30T09:00:00.001-07:00

ok....so many months i staying in kampar to preparing my final exam...i never had a really really gud time in kampar...wat i do in kampar is nt slp nt eat then nth tat i can do...or im going bck hometown or going kl jz for fun...its totally bored...i will die there...

but then this week,i hv a gud time until i nt enuff slp...but its really cool...im sorry mh,samantha,angie...i alwaz ffk u all...coz i alwaz nt in kampar...lolzzz...

finally,this week i gt time to seeing u all in kampar...haha....i really hv a gud time...i really never went a place tat so scary but then its really nice...its dark,many stars n winds...i luv tat winds...haha...very very 'romantic'...haha... and having ee yong wid us...wow....syok gila...haha....

i never seen so many stars b4...its really cool...but then im being blur until a train passed by then i tot is kapal terbang...haha....so paiseh....then watching movie....its horror movie....haha....mh...u so lame until takut...nvm....we all accompany u...wakakazzz...but im sure i really dun sked of tat...haha...but its really cool...

and seeing u guys chasing fireflies and see it so close so close is really gud experience....haha...its really fun....

then we had mh to cut his hair finally....a pretty gal become a lengchai....wakakazzz....happy huh....im so proud of 'her'!!!haha....finally 'she' being MAN....haha....

finally,i happy to be wid u guys...haha...i really seen n learn lots of thing...haha...and knowing new frens...let me think...erm....wing,hua...n a guy...i dun rmb the name...haha....nice meeting u guys...thank you wing...alwaz 'mafan' u to pick me...n let guard kacau...haha....thank you samantha n angeline n mh...hehe....giving me a very gud weekend in kampar..hehe....

i luv u guys....and finally i update my blog...haha....

stay tuned.....

chak neh...^^

toturing me....i never play mahjong until so suffer...

2008-08-30T08:50:00.000-07:00

ok...here's the thing...my bro intro my parents an online game which is viwawa.com....everyone knows it very well...i like it too...of coz...

then my bro told them tat mahjong is having competition on it b4 31st August.who ever on the top 3 will hv prices...of coz i dunno whether its true o not...then my parents so happy n so rajin to play this mahjong game until dowan slp n dowan chai me...even im in studsy week now...they paksa me to play for them when they away....oh my god....

i never try tat my parents ask me to play game than studying...its letting me hate mahjong online....n i already suffer few hours in front the monitor playing mahjong...n making me nuts is...i cant game...alwaz gv ppl 'chit wu'.....wat the helll.... its really ridiculous....

i think i nid to learn from mh....fuck the world....lolzzz.... sorry that i break my will...haha....i scold bad words again....

end of story...

so sien....=.=|||

2008-06-04T02:48:00.000-07:00

i'm so bored in kampar....
why am i coming here for study???
why this world will hv a boring,dead and feeling lifeless de place...
why why why???
why??????????????????????
i'm so dead....
i'm so freaking dead here....
i dunno how am i going to survive here for last 3 years...
dun sayone week....
1 hours aso i cnt make it...
aihz....

=.=

tagged by my dear meiling~~~

2008-05-16T11:35:00.000-07:00

8 things I'm passionate about:
1 - family
2 - friends
3 - ppl i like
4 - money
5 - nth else...
6 - --------
7 - ------------
8 - ----------------

8 things I say or do too often:
1 - watch drama
2 - online
3 - yam char
4 - sleeping
5 - exercise
6 - anyhting....
7 - anyhting
8 - anyhting...........

8 things I've read recently
1 - newtide.
2 - lifeTV.
3 - charmine.
4 - newspaper.
5 - my dear's blog.
6 - articles.
7 - -
8 - -

8 songs I could listen over and over again
1 - meng xing shi fen-chen shu hua
2 - yue guang xia-huang qi ming
3 - my life be like-grits
4 - hardstyle song
5 - ai wo de ren he wo ai de ren
6 -jian ao- cyndi
7 -新不了情-万芳
8 - wo bu pei-jay chou

8 people to tag
1 - christie
2 - steve
3 - mei ling
4 -xiuxiu
5 -link
6 - whoever wanna do it
7 - anyone that interested
8 - the person who reading this post

missing u all....so muchie..^^

2008-04-26T07:26:00.001-07:00

hehe.....its my dear...mei ling neh...she 's the 1st close fren in my class....hehe....she is very nice,funky,funny gal tat i ever met....hehe....muakczzz....luv u so much.....hehe....

bell bell....we knew ech other since form 1..hehe...happy to spedn time together wid u...hehe...hope tat we can get through all the things ...hehe....

hehe....my cute cute n lengchai roomate...wakakazzzz...this is link....aka porn prince coz she too hamsap ad....dunno why...i hamsap aso she taught de...haha....anyway...dun worry neh...i wun forget ude neh....hehe...thankx for everyting u did for me ya...n ur dinausaur too neh....muackzzz....luv u....

this is xiuxiu....she....aihz....mai kong liao....macam saya mia clone...when i was young...haha....bt happy to hv u as my frens...hehe....rmb t chang ooo....n dun think ppl hates u...jz do ur own will be ok....n dun care how ppl think u ooo...tat will makes u think more....no good neh....hehe.....

moreover...i hv 6 ah kor in this year which is steve,an an,maxie,fei fei,christie and chyuan sheng desu....haha......they alll handsome,charming,cool,tall....and masculine neh...hehe.....im happy to hv uall as my ah kor neh....hehe...im proud to be ur xiao mei n xiao di desu....muackzzz..luv u alll so muchie....

and kiki,samantha,amy,angeline,kwanyi,melanie,dione,sook yan,lulu and many more....hehe....nice to meeting u all....im so happy to hv u all in my class....hehe...muackzzz..missu all so muchie neh....^^

do u think ppl deserved it for wat u hv done???

2008-04-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

today i din go for classes, duno why jz dun feel wanna go...moreover i hv my thigns to do...n today my mood cant say bad o good either,so jz normal...but...dunno why when i read the msg,okay....the 'fire' that i kept long long time ago came...u wanna know why...because i had given a person tat i really really treat him as very very close de person to come n scold me...ok...this nt the 1st time i felt...i know i can control it...i know i can handle it....its ok for me...everyone have temper....one time,never mind its ok...2nd time, ok...it will be fine...bt not the 3rd time...i aso hv temper jz i kept it many years coz i dun like ppl lepas geram on me neither do i lepas on others.so why me....izzit i very easy for u all to lepas geram...i aso gt temper...if wanna challenge my temper sure 100% wun lose for ur temper...i dowan to use my temper is because i dowan to hurt ppl....i knw my attitude once i open my mouth, everything will gone crazy and change.i dowan it happen so i dowan to....why must u all paksa me to do so....i really dowan to hurt ppl...so plz....dun step my tail and dun losse temper on me....i cant control so many times....i dowan to talk bout it du npaksa me to do so...i will really really yell at u all...

another things is,ppl hv their own privacy.whether she hv bf o not its nt ur fault...dun so busybody go n tell others she o he gt gf o bf...its none of ur bizzz ok...do u think is cool....o u jz wanna humiliate her in front of other ppl...why???u think tat she nt qualified enuff to hv ppl luv o u think u the one who most qualified....if u think so....sorry to tell u that....for me n others that know more bout u wun think tat u qualified to gv ppl luv u...coz u r so bithcy, so pat po,so letting me hate u more....and...for me...u r nothing to me....do u really think im very interested on u...u wrong...u are so.....disgust me when i saw u....u knw how to wear mask so do i...of coz nt as pro as u....letting ppl saw u so pity rite...actually the one who pity u i feel pity....coz letting u cheated....why am i alwaz nid to write u in my blog....why am i alwaz so so so hate u in reality???ppl's things is none of ur bizzz...so plz....dun be so busybody...when i saw it i really will throwing up....OMG~~~~

tagged by Christie Desu...^^

2008-02-02T10:36:00.000-08:00

Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question, make it total of 20 questions.
Then tag to 11 people in your list. List them out at the end of the post.
Link to the one who tag you, then spread it to 11 people.
Let the game go on, return the tag to sender is prohibited.

1. Rainy days or sunny days? why?
-sunny....it bring happy,fun and sun shine to brighten up our lives...

2. Which colour do you prefer?
- black, coz i think black is the most beautiful color....

3. Who would you marry?
- someone that i luv,someone that luv me more than i do,well,women r greedy when talk bout luv...

4. What present would you prefer the best?
- whatever i get from my loved ones,i will luv it...

5. What are you most afraid of losing.
- losing everything that i hv now....

6. What is the sentence that you wanna say if you are given the chance to speak for the last time.
- i wish to hv a 2nd chance to live again and make my life more colourful....

7. The dumbest thing you had done in your life.
- well...having a relationship tat too early in the age of 16 and dumped him...well...its a past...i let it go ad anyway....

8. What qualities do you want in your other half?
-qualities that women dream to hv....welll....everyone should know...

9. Till now, what is the moment you regret the most?
- never appreciate a relationship i guess...

10. Which type of person you hate most?
- ppl tat selfish n oni think of themselves n din use their brain to think of sth else...

11. What is your ambition?
- retiring on the age of 28 without marry a rich guy....

12. Would you rather be someone else at this moment?
- i guess so....if i hv the chance...

13. If you can have a dream to wish to come true, what would it be?
- i wish i can be more harworking in my study...

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- family and frens...lover....

15. Ever feel like dying in your life for once?
- i think everyone does hv this kind of thought so....yea...i do....

16. What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
- haha....having sex....haha.....cooL....rite???jz kiddin' anyway....

17. Who do you wanna meet at least once before you die?
- wow....i never thought of tat...i think mayb angel...

18. What would you do if you can turn the clock backwards and go back in time?
-i will change myself out n never did the dumpest thing in my life...

19. What was your dream during childhood?
- be a lawyer....

20. How would you feel if your friend betrayed you?
- feel dissappointed and mayb will forgive them if the case is not to serious....

i tag :
1. mei ling
2. mr. link
3. apple
4. steve zaiii(ah kor)
5. christie
6. maxie
7. bell bell
8. xiuxiu
9. rainbow
10. sammie
11. kiki

People tat i think is selfish n no brain....hehe...^^

2008-01-14T02:02:00.000-08:00

hmmm....how to say...recently thinking of..ppl tat i dun like...well, i nt the kind of ppl tat hate ppl..bt sometimes its very annoying when u see this kind of ppl in front of u.this kind of ppl tat think themselves is a 'princess'..bt u r not...its...very very...irritating,u dun like u can jz shut ur mouth bt dun show off tat u r a good gal no bad words for u,n u should think of wat ppl suffer.u rich i knw, u hv a wealthful family, bt plz think of ppl tat nt ur type of family,think of ppl,nt all ppl r like u.

n i hate u using ppl to help u do things.bt can u ask properly n not ppl hutang u tat kind of ways to ask for help...can u jz say a word "PLEASE"???and thank ppl who help u...nt thank ppl in front of u...use ur brain..my god....think....im nt other ppl tat can tahan u....dun make me really cant tahan...u r in my black list...u doom gal...

and...u dun like ppl touch urs ..dun touch others...i hv the right dun let u touch my hair...so u dun touch...but u dun hv the right saying im small gas dun let u touch...anyway...i learnt from u...u dun like ppl touch u either....so dun touch anymore...god....cant believes in this world gt this kind of ppl...

and...if ppl fetch u..plz tell tat ppl tat u nid to pick one more...nt everyone's car can fit so many ppl ok...plz use ur brain...i hv the right dowan fetch u...plz think of other ppl...dun be so selfish....do u think u more importatn than other ppl???asking a fren live far cm to here n tk u for train?do u think is neccesarry?sizzit no taxi no bus for u???izzit???do u really nid to depends on other ppl to live???r u some kind of organism tat hv to depends ppl to live?my god....such a freek...damn....cant believe it....

tagGeD By my DeaR~~~

2008-01-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

Rules & Regulations
1) do NOT copy MY answers.
2) the tag questions must be 100% the same.
3) tag 5 people after doing this tag.

this tag is a little different, first you list out 20 of your friends names:
1.Bell
2. yingling
3. mei ling
4. mr. link
5. xiuxiu
6. steve
7.an an
8.fei fei
9. christie
10.maxie
11.chyuan sheng
12. Mr. Q
13.rainbow
14. jason
15. elaine
16. garfield
17. kiki
18.amy
19. onion head
20. kin

how did you get to know 14? *jason*
- he was my classmates since my secondary school...hehe....

what would you do if you had never met 1? *bell*
- well...its a 'sun shi'....coz she is a hot n sexy lady...haha...

what would you do if 9 and 20 had dated you? *christie n kin*
- well..its nt gonna happen coz its impossible...lagipun one is my ah kor...one is my housemates....haha...

would 6 & 17 make a good couple? *steve n kiki*
-yup...sure is...i hope so...haha...

do you think 8 is attractive? *fei fei*
-he is funky,kind,nice guy...i like him so much..coz he aso one of my ah kor...

do you know anything about 12's family? *mr.Q*
- she has a dad n mum,she is the eldest....ther es..dunno ad...

tell me something about 7. *an an*
- he is an an,one of my ah kor,he has a cute gf..i proud of it,he is a good guy...hehe...

what is 18's favourite? *amy*
- dunno...hehe...

what language does 15 speak? *elaine*
- chinese , cantonese, malay & english i think...oh n hokkien.

who is 19 going out with? *onion head*
-good...i dunno...i hv no idea...

how old is 16 now? *garfield*
- 19 ad lor...

when was the last time you talked to 13? *rainbow*
- last nite....

would you date 4? *mr.link*
-wat...mr.link....no thankx...haha...nt my type...

would you date 17? *kiki*
- duhh...she is a gal...im nt lesbian..

is 15 single? *elaine*
- she has bf ad..

wat is 20's lat name?*kin*
- dunno...

would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? *chyuan sheng*
-hell no..he is my ah kor too..

where school does 3 go to? * mei ling*
-UTAR...

where does 6 live? *stave*-klang .

what is your favourite thing about 5? *xiuxiu*
-well...she is a nice person..wanna knw her...add her up.. u will knw...

5 persons i wish to tag :
1-Mr.link
2-chritie
3-steve
4-yingling
5-anyone who wan to tagged....